Here's A Personal Post

No politics today. I've had a lot on my mind with personal stuff. I won't go super public but I need to vent this. I'm sorry. I appreciate the reading in every single country, all over the world. It's pretty incredible. I cannot thank you enough for you all. 

I moved from Nashville, TN about 4 months ago. Nashville was my dream and I was so blessed to live there for 5 years. I moved when I was 19 with no family within 500 miles. Looking back, I do not regret it at all. Do I regret moving away? Not really. Is it still hard on me mentally? I'd be lying if I said no. Lord do I miss that place. I had "planted my roots" to quote one of my uncles. I had a church, a job, another job, great friends and a beautiful living space right on the Cumberland River, just far enough from town but just close enough to where I could go there anytime I wanted. 

That place was my home. Heck, even my fiancé and our dog loved the peaceful area. We'd wake up and hear birds and the water. The sun would shine on the little yellow house, it was a slice of heaven. 

Although I have never been clinically diagnosed, I'm sure I have depression. I rely on pictures of loved ones and music to get me out of it. I do not want to really converse with anybody. In fact, that's my nature. I've been told I'm lazy and easy going. Both are true. I can get along with anybody and everybody but only if I want to. I've been told I would never make it in the music industry. I proved them wrong with many different situations. I'm very proud of my endeavors. I have traveled to 9 different countries, traveled to 45 of the lower 48 states here in the USA. I have traveled from one coast to the other and from one side of "the pond" to the other. I have friends all over the world I can call or text at any given moment. Again, I am very blessed to final of this before I turn 25!

Some people would kill to have my life. But, honestly, I am not happy. I never thought I would say it but I am completely miserable. I do not know why. I know I am homesick but even that isn't the true reason for my unhappiness. I have no idea. I feel that is a problem. I should know why I am unhappy and happy, right? I wish I knew of a way to escape this sadness. The rain outside, here in central Arkansas, is not helping either. 

I miss my dog, my mom, my dad, sister, my brother-in-law and most of all my fiancé. I do not have a home right now. I left Nashville and all of my belongings are in a trailer. I miss home, wherever that may be. I guess that's a reason why I haven't found my happiness...I haven't found my home. 

-Clint

Thank you, again. It's just one of those days. There's more I could write but I don't think you guys care much for it anyways. After all, this is primarily a political blog. So much is on my mind, I had to release it someplace.